well before i start saying anything, i would also like to say no offence or wadsoever to the stuff that im going to say later...i know how u feel, coz im going thru the same thing as well...i guess wad made u type all these stuff to me is becoz u couldnt really keep it to urself anymore...to tell u the truth, sooner or later if u didnt do that, i would have done so too...i agree that we totally drifted apart since sec 1...at sec 2 we totally didnt really talk much, just a few hi-s and bye-s occasionally everytime we walk by...i totally didnt mind coz u hav ur friend [the one tt transferred] and i had mine...i guess fate took us back to the same class at sec 3 and yeah its not exactly a bad thing after all...i know we all changed after a year of not being together...u had ur close friends and i had mine too...just tt after being betrayed i was left with no choice but to seek for new friends desperately...during my search, well the first few was of course u guys and the rest were, well my friends [u noe who as well]...so wads the point of saying all these? i just want u to know that i didnt exactly want to drift away from u...its just that ur friends n i have totally different likes...all of u guys like english songs and i dont blame u for that...its just tt in the morning wen i played the songs from a speaker, i wasnt really quite happy at all of ur reactions when a chinese song played...i personally like chinese songs...and the worst thing is that the chinese songs i liked, well u guys just totally hate...i mean its still my likes but i dont blame u guys coz u hav the rights to hate as well...but its just that since i respected u guys about liking english songs, shouldnt u all do the same? neither do i want this friendship to end as well, i nver ever EVER thought of that at all...its just that i hope u wont misunderstand me, so i will explain to u wads going on n clear all ur doubts or wadeva u had in mind...i dont tink a quarrel is actually gonna solve anything at all, and i want u to know my thoughts all this while too...well i havent been blogging bout u becoz i really, as in nothing much happened between us...u seemed to be ever so sianz everyday, n since u seldom come to my blog, it just died down...i dont noe wads with the tagging, but as in if u use the frequency of tagging to measure the rate of friendship, i guess that wouldnt take u anywhere...time is part of this as well, coz i noe u hav a very busy schedule, n i noe that urging u to tagg my blog will become a pain in ur neck, so that died down too...and for the photo part...haiz the prob is that have we ever taken a pic together before? as in except for the one at the airport with leesheng? no ritez? so i dont tink its kinda weird not to take a photo coz everytime i want to, u simply refuse so i cant force u can i? i agree that we havent been talking properly...its always a one word conversation or one that ends in less than a minute...i didnt noe y, there seem to be little we can talk about...i noe u kinda think tt u havent been there for me but after u brought back the orange book n it nver appeared again, i really cant find much time to share my troubles with u becoz we were always busy in sch n even during our free time...sometimes its just hard to find a perfect timing...i tink u noe wad i meant...like for example the barging in of someone during our conversation...well usually i say later den tell u, but forgetful as i m, it always dies down too...its just tt we no longer have the privacy we used to hav and we cant even talk in private for more than 5 mins...the next point which i really wann u to understand...i noe it looks like we r drifting apart, n me being brought closer n closer to my new friends,u should get wad i mean...its not that...as in everytime i try to talk with u guys, there seem to be no place for me to stand, and the things i talk about always seem no link to u guys...i didnt noe wads the reason, perhaps u guys r smarter? perhaps i m just being stupid...i donno which but i cant really fit into place and talk normally becoz if i did, i will either offend someone or just make one of u piss and stalk off...so i was tinking wad is the point of me trying to push right into u guys making both of us uncomfortable...i always had to tink n find the words to say when im with u guys coz i really cant afford to offend any one of u...i really cant like, u noe, express myself with my lame stuff that totally freaked u guys out and i totally dont feel comfortable at all...i hope u understand this point...i noe we tink differently as well, as i said earlier bout the songs and another reason is just becoz we sat too far in class n the only project we got to do together was the geog volcano one, n it turned out super sucky when the rest of the group misunderstood me for not being coorperative when i really had something on n cant help much with the powerpoint...i tink u agree with that as well becoz well, that is the only project we got to do together...so to tell u the truth, i forgot how to work with u, i even forgot how we used to work together in sec 1...i didnt noe wad u meant by pursuit different qualities but i guess u meant like appreciating different things and the measurement of the importance of some stuff...i agree that we hang out with friends of different characteristic but we were made differently...its like over here, they enjoy chinese n taiwanese drama n over there u guys talked bout english shows that i nver even hear before...i dont really wanna say this but one of u said that fahrenheit sucks to one of us...[im trying not to mention names so as to prevent offending anyone]...as in if we hav no absolute objection to u guys liking english stuff, den i dont see y u guys should hav any...as in if u r a fan of well lets say jonas n we say they suck, obviously u will get mad...do u understand wad im trying to say? as in if u dont like them, u shouldnt comment on the things they like if they didnt comment any on urs rite? and i guess u shouldnt measure friendship with all our different personalities coz as i said, we were made that way...no one was made to be exactly the same like others...so in this case, we should learn to get along instead of pin pointing who has better qualities and stuff...im not trying to say that u did but yeah i was trying to sum up that point...i cant deny the fact that i changed over a year of sec 2...n i noe u cant deny that as well...its like all of u noe the piano so well like the fingers on ur palm and i noe ur transferred friend shared a lot of common things with u as well...i cant stop u guys from getting closer n ur strong friendship with her is obviously unbreakable...but i really wanna say that being different doesnt hav anything to do with friendship...if i cant play the piano, i will learn to...but that is before u start to judge me as different n say that i hav a different personalities...i can say im a musical idiot coz i quit at grade 2 n both her n u had like wonderful times or so as i heard from u...i noe i can replace her n im not trying to do so, but i really hope u dont discrimminate me from her just becoz we hav less things in common compared to her...u seem to miss her a lot as i can tell n im not like opposing u guys being friends just that i really dont like the fact tt u compared me to her so frequently...it really hurts me so although u may not realise wad u said actually does in a sense inflict some injury on me...like wen u wanted a certain reply from me n u didnt get it, u will say like if it was her, she wouldnt have answered that way...as in i really dont like to be compared with her coz main reason she is smarter, she is cleverer, she is better with musical instruments...its not that i dont like her...but i m ME...i really cant be two person at the same time to satisfy u though i tried...its kinda tiring and wads the point of listening to an answer u already noe by heart wad i was going to say? haiz its really hard to explain and im pretty fortunate i dont hav to do this face to face with u...its just tt everytime i do something different from her, ur remarks will shoot through my brain like some bullets...and recently i only went up like 3 times earlier during recess and each of them, i had my own reasons...there was one time i was feeling totally unwell, if u didnt realise...i ate little and decided to go up n rest, since the breeze on the 5th floor is much cooler n nicer n stuff like tt...n another main reason was tt as i said i couldnt get along with u guys coz i hav nothing to say at all n i really couldnt join in the conversation normally like i was one of u guys...its like the results u guys get were better n den u all were complaining n stuff...i tink u noe how tt feels...although some subjects, i did better than u, i got last third for overall position in class...i noe u are not below me coz i noe who the last two were...so u have no reasons to say im complaining when im better than u coz its the other way round...second time was becoz i had something on with my cca and i needed to find table tennis ppl n discuss...obviously u wont wanna pangseh ur friends so i didnt blame u as well...n the last time was becoz i was having pms of some sort...i was really in horrible mood n to prevent clashes from happening at the table, i decided to leave first, to calm my nerves and not get questioned bout my angry/sad looking face...i dont like to blast at ppl wen im angry/sad, so leaving is the best way...so that sums up the recess portion...another reason y we drifted away was becoz each morning u come to sch as if u were caught in a thunderstorm or something coz u are always looking ever so tired or angry or sad...i didnt noe if i mis-interpret ur feelings but yeah as i said i dont like to get disturbed when im angry/sad so i hav no reason to disturb u as well...haiz everytime i talk to u, u look as though u were about to kill me or anything...i can say i donno wad u went through outside or at home, so obviously keeping quiet is the best way to avoid any quarrels in sch...sometimes the reply i got from u tells me that "hey get outta my way or die" or soemthing like tt...its like i guess u were in bad mood n hav no where to vent it...i understand tt but yeah as i said, to prevent clashes, its best i shut up...i have been wanting to ask or perhaps question u, but i really didnt hav the courage to do so...as in i was tinking, if u see no prob with our friendship, i dont see y i should ask weird questions all of a sudden n destroy that thin line of foundation that held us throughout sec2 which enabled us to be gd friends in sec 3 again...i dont really blame u for anything, i just want u to know that it takes two hands to clap and if u were to blame, so m i...perhaps its our DISC, perhaps its the group we r mixing with...becoz last year ur class is so much better than mine, which is the notorious class of the level, so obviously the people i faced were, not so class like the people u faced...n after one year, perhaps i gained stupidity n lost manners, while u, benefited the other way round...but being able to actually get back from where we started in sec 1 is a fortune that im really contented with...we were half developed in sec 1 and got cut off, but able to get back at sec 3 really makes me wonder how thick the foundation of our friendship was...it should hav gone thinner, or perhaps worn off but we were still able to catch up, n i really appreciate that...i've cried bout this quite some time ago when it was built up the ending of last year to the starting of this year...becoz all the close friends i had, just seem to turn their backs on me n slam the door shut...u were the only one that was able to last through 3 years and u left a little gap for me to squeeze thru in ur door so i wont be shut outside, feeling ever so lonely...im really thankful for that and i dont blame u for not understanding me...remember the time mrs yeo said that poets kept to themselves a lot and majority of the world cant seem to figure out wad they are thinking? i guess that happens to me as well...my friendships were all sank by the torturous waves and partly becoz not many ppl understands me...i dont blame u for all the things u did or wadeva u said or anything other particular things becoz i just wann u to noe that everyone is different...in order to work well with others, we ourselves hav to change instead of ordering others to do so n suit our needs...so i wann u to noe i had been working hard to change all the stupid habits i hav and be able to switch to formal conversation everytime it was needed...i dont expect anything from u, just so long u promise me one thing...BE YOURSELF...that's all i can say...everyone is unique and i dont see anything rong with that...as translated from chinese, natural is beauty, so i dont really ask u for anything in common, just be yourself n everything will work out just fine... =] and of course i hope that all these long nonsense of crap that i got u reading, solved all misunderstandings and problems we had...and ended the troubles and quarrels that were about to start...so yeah i guess that is bout all...just be yourself, that's all i can say and everything will be just fine... yijing =]
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well before i start saying anything, i would also like to say no offence or wadsoever to the stuff that im going to say later...i know how u feel, coz im going thru the same thing as well...i guess wad made u type all these stuff to me is becoz u couldnt really keep it to urself anymore...to tell u the truth, sooner or later if u didnt do that, i would have done so too...i agree that we totally drifted apart since sec 1...at sec 2 we totally didnt really talk much, just a few hi-s and bye-s occasionally everytime we walk by...i totally didnt mind coz u hav ur friend [the one tt transferred] and i had mine...i guess fate took us back to the same class at sec 3 and yeah its not exactly a bad thing after all...i know we all changed after a year of not being together...u had ur close friends and i had mine too...just tt after being betrayed i was left with no choice but to seek for new friends desperately...during my search, well the first few was of course u guys and the rest were, well my friends [u noe who as well]...so wads the point of saying all these? i just want u to know that i didnt exactly want to drift away from u...its just that ur friends n i have totally different likes...all of u guys like english songs and i dont blame u for that...its just tt in the morning wen i played the songs from a speaker, i wasnt really quite happy at all of ur reactions when a chinese song played...i personally like chinese songs...and the worst thing is that the chinese songs i liked, well u guys just totally hate...i mean its still my likes but i dont blame u guys coz u hav the rights to hate as well...but its just that since i respected u guys about liking english songs, shouldnt u all do the same? neither do i want this friendship to end as well, i nver ever EVER thought of that at all...its just that i hope u wont misunderstand me, so i will explain to u wads going on n clear all ur doubts or wadeva u had in mind...i dont tink a quarrel is actually gonna solve anything at all, and i want u to know my thoughts all this while too...well i havent been blogging bout u becoz i really, as in nothing much happened between us...u seemed to be ever so sianz everyday, n since u seldom come to my blog, it just died down...i dont noe wads with the tagging, but as in if u use the frequency of tagging to measure the rate of friendship, i guess that wouldnt take u anywhere...time is part of this as well, coz i noe u hav a very busy schedule, n i noe that urging u to tagg my blog will become a pain in ur neck, so that died down too...and for the photo part...haiz the prob is that have we ever taken a pic together before? as in except for the one at the airport with leesheng? no ritez? so i dont tink its kinda weird not to take a photo coz everytime i want to, u simply refuse so i cant force u can i? i agree that we havent been talking properly...its always a one word conversation or one that ends in less than a minute...i didnt noe y, there seem to be little we can talk about...i noe u kinda think tt u havent been there for me but after u brought back the orange book n it nver appeared again, i really cant find much time to share my troubles with u becoz we were always busy in sch n even during our free time...sometimes its just hard to find a perfect timing...i tink u noe wad i meant...like for example the barging in of someone during our conversation...well usually i say later den tell u, but forgetful as i m, it always dies down too...its just tt we no longer have the privacy we used to hav and we cant even talk in private for more than 5 mins...the next point which i really wann u to understand...i noe it looks like we r drifting apart, n me being brought closer n closer to my new friends,u should get wad i mean...its not that...as in everytime i try to talk with u guys, there seem to be no place for me to stand, and the things i talk about always seem no link to u guys...i didnt noe wads the reason, perhaps u guys r smarter? perhaps i m just being stupid...i donno which but i cant really fit into place and talk normally becoz if i did, i will either offend someone or just make one of u piss and stalk off...so i was tinking wad is the point of me trying to push right into u guys making both of us uncomfortable...i always had to tink n find the words to say when im with u guys coz i really cant afford to offend any one of u...i really cant like, u noe, express myself with my lame stuff that totally freaked u guys out and i totally dont feel comfortable at all...i hope u understand this point...i noe we tink differently as well, as i said earlier bout the songs and another reason is just becoz we sat too far in class n the only project we got to do together was the geog volcano one, n it turned out super sucky when the rest of the group misunderstood me for not being coorperative when i really had something on n cant help much with the powerpoint...i tink u agree with that as well becoz well, that is the only project we got to do together...so to tell u the truth, i forgot how to work with u, i even forgot how we used to work together in sec 1...i didnt noe wad u meant by pursuit different qualities but i guess u meant like appreciating different things and the measurement of the importance of some stuff...i agree that we hang out with friends of different characteristic but we were made differently...its like over here, they enjoy chinese n taiwanese drama n over there u guys talked bout english shows that i nver even hear before...i dont really wanna say this but one of u said that fahrenheit sucks to one of us...[im trying not to mention names so as to prevent offending anyone]...as in if we hav no absolute objection to u guys liking english stuff, den i dont see y u guys should hav any...as in if u r a fan of well lets say jonas n we say they suck, obviously u will get mad...do u understand wad im trying to say? as in if u dont like them, u shouldnt comment on the things they like if they didnt comment any on urs rite? and i guess u shouldnt measure friendship with all our different personalities coz as i said, we were made that way...no one was made to be exactly the same like others...so in this case, we should learn to get along instead of pin pointing who has better qualities and stuff...im not trying to say that u did but yeah i was trying to sum up that point...i cant deny the fact that i changed over a year of sec 2...n i noe u cant deny that as well...its like all of u noe the piano so well like the fingers on ur palm and i noe ur transferred friend shared a lot of common things with u as well...i cant stop u guys from getting closer n ur strong friendship with her is obviously unbreakable...but i really wanna say that being different doesnt hav anything to do with friendship...if i cant play the piano, i will learn to...but that is before u start to judge me as different n say that i hav a different personalities...i can say im a musical idiot coz i quit at grade 2 n both her n u had like wonderful times or so as i heard from u...i noe i can replace her n im not trying to do so, but i really hope u dont discrimminate me from her just becoz we hav less things in common compared to her...u seem to miss her a lot as i can tell n im not like opposing u guys being friends just that i really dont like the fact tt u compared me to her so frequently...it really hurts me so although u may not realise wad u said actually does in a sense inflict some injury on me...like wen u wanted a certain reply from me n u didnt get it, u will say like if it was her, she wouldnt have answered that way...as in i really dont like to be compared with her coz main reason she is smarter, she is cleverer, she is better with musical instruments...its not that i dont like her...but i m ME...i really cant be two person at the same time to satisfy u though i tried...its kinda tiring and wads the point of listening to an answer u already noe by heart wad i was going to say? haiz its really hard to explain and im pretty fortunate i dont hav to do this face to face with u...its just tt everytime i do something different from her, ur remarks will shoot through my brain like some bullets...and recently i only went up like 3 times earlier during recess and each of them, i had my own reasons...there was one time i was feeling totally unwell, if u didnt realise...i ate little and decided to go up n rest, since the breeze on the 5th floor is much cooler n nicer n stuff like tt...n another main reason was tt as i said i couldnt get along with u guys coz i hav nothing to say at all n i really couldnt join in the conversation normally like i was one of u guys...its like the results u guys get were better n den u all were complaining n stuff...i tink u noe how tt feels...although some subjects, i did better than u, i got last third for overall position in class...i noe u are not below me coz i noe who the last two were...so u have no reasons to say im complaining when im better than u coz its the other way round...second time was becoz i had something on with my cca and i needed to find table tennis ppl n discuss...obviously u wont wanna pangseh ur friends so i didnt blame u as well...n the last time was becoz i was having pms of some sort...i was really in horrible mood n to prevent clashes from happening at the table, i decided to leave first, to calm my nerves and not get questioned bout my angry/sad looking face...i dont like to blast at ppl wen im angry/sad, so leaving is the best way...so that sums up the recess portion...another reason y we drifted away was becoz each morning u come to sch as if u were caught in a thunderstorm or something coz u are always looking ever so tired or angry or sad...i didnt noe if i mis-interpret ur feelings but yeah as i said i dont like to get disturbed when im angry/sad so i hav no reason to disturb u as well...haiz everytime i talk to u, u look as though u were about to kill me or anything...i can say i donno wad u went through outside or at home, so obviously keeping quiet is the best way to avoid any quarrels in sch...sometimes the reply i got from u tells me that "hey get outta my way or die" or soemthing like tt...its like i guess u were in bad mood n hav no where to vent it...i understand tt but yeah as i said, to prevent clashes, its best i shut up...i have been wanting to ask or perhaps question u, but i really didnt hav the courage to do so...as in i was tinking, if u see no prob with our friendship, i dont see y i should ask weird questions all of a sudden n destroy that thin line of foundation that held us throughout sec2 which enabled us to be gd friends in sec 3 again...i dont really blame u for anything, i just want u to know that it takes two hands to clap and if u were to blame, so m i...perhaps its our DISC, perhaps its the group we r mixing with...becoz last year ur class is so much better than mine, which is the notorious class of the level, so obviously the people i faced were, not so class like the people u faced...n after one year, perhaps i gained stupidity n lost manners, while u, benefited the other way round...but being able to actually get back from where we started in sec 1 is a fortune that im really contented with...we were half developed in sec 1 and got cut off, but able to get back at sec 3 really makes me wonder how thick the foundation of our friendship was...it should hav gone thinner, or perhaps worn off but we were still able to catch up, n i really appreciate that...i've cried bout this quite some time ago when it was built up the ending of last year to the starting of this year...becoz all the close friends i had, just seem to turn their backs on me n slam the door shut...u were the only one that was able to last through 3 years and u left a little gap for me to squeeze thru in ur door so i wont be shut outside, feeling ever so lonely...im really thankful for that and i dont blame u for not understanding me...remember the time mrs yeo said that poets kept to themselves a lot and majority of the world cant seem to figure out wad they are thinking? i guess that happens to me as well...my friendships were all sank by the torturous waves and partly becoz not many ppl understands me...i dont blame u for all the things u did or wadeva u said or anything other particular things becoz i just wann u to noe that everyone is different...in order to work well with others, we ourselves hav to change instead of ordering others to do so n suit our needs...so i wann u to noe i had been working hard to change all the stupid habits i hav and be able to switch to formal conversation everytime it was needed...i dont expect anything from u, just so long u promise me one thing...BE YOURSELF...that's all i can say...everyone is unique and i dont see anything rong with that...as translated from chinese, natural is beauty, so i dont really ask u for anything in common, just be yourself n everything will work out just fine... =] and of course i hope that all these long nonsense of crap that i got u reading, solved all misunderstandings and problems we had...and ended the troubles and quarrels that were about to start...so yeah i guess that is bout all...just be yourself, that's all i can say and everything will be just fine... yijing =]