Tuesday, May 19, 2009

hie world...thanz for killing me...im gonna flood u with my tears


Today was the most horrible day
I just failed in every way

The exam results were smacked in my face
Suicidal comes to mind at every case

Firstly in the morning, amaths came
As usual, like emaths, it drove me insane

I seemed to have gotten somewhat immune
Becoz i failed 3 exams just before noon

They came crashing, one after the other
I could just imagine the look of my mother
Though she is overseas, i just felt it
That tingling sense of danger, just that little bit

"Why do i suck at maths?" i often asked aloud
And this was always companied by a pout

I listen in class, i pay attention but i still fail
Its a" sooner-or-later" thing before i get myself killed

I smiled in school for the benefits of my friends
Those who had more than just suicidal attempts

Its just horrible, having to keep your emotions
That takes me one step nearer to depression


Slowly, as the seconds ticked by

I'm prepared to lay my head down n cry

Everyone who got higher marks act like death just called

Then shouldnt i jump off the building n end it ALL?


I am not angry, but it's just madness

I was totally engulfed by a sea of sadness
I failed chem and i didnt expect it

When the papers came, I was stunned in my seat


When i reached home, i shut my door tight

With that, I surrendered to the "controlling-of-tears" fight
However, what came out of my eyes were a few miserable tears
The rest of them were kept too long from the past few years


I cried till i fell asleep and woke with red eyes
The sky was sad too as the thunder cries

Later i was lectured by my friend
But it went in one ear and came out the other end

I guess tonight i will have to battle with my nightmare
I hope i wont tear my pillow and bear

Hope that i dont fail any other stuff
Or my future will just turn super tough...


p/s: i will write poems when i m feeling super emotional...those that hate poems can dont read this...


seeyahsoon: yijing ='[

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|11:49 AM|


blog
child
friends
others
Get awesome blog templates like this one from BlogSkins.comGet awesome blog templates like this one from BlogSkins.com