every thursday, something horrible is sure to happen to me...its just crazy...why thursday? firstly its de longest day of the week, secondly it has two maths periods one after another, thirdly, it has pe and lastly i just hate it...
first period is pe todae and we did some of the stations for napfa mainly standing broad jump and sit and reach...i was practicing my standing broad jump and managed to get an a or something...so b4 the real thing i wanted to try jumping again...guess wad? BANG! i slide and landed on my side...my hip bone was super painful and when i stood up, my palms were numb...i totally couldnt feel anything...i tried poking jabbing whacking...well it just doesnt work...jia-en was shocked i fell so horribly and xiu jian even dug her nails into my palm...its just horrible so i decided to take my napfa next week instead...
b4 that, i was able to witness de spectacular...ivy wearing green shorts! she always wore fbt and de school had a sudden change in rules...no fbt for sports players too...in the end our whole class surrendered cept ivy...she got a demerit though...i didnt noe wad made her buy de shorts as in she was so persistent to not buying it...i managed to push her to de toilet but after wearing it she didnt wanna go out coz she think de shorts is gay...pushed her 5 metres outta de toilet and there she stood, hugging the wall...so i called danica n yanyou for help...in de end ivy cried for...well i oso donno y...she said she hate de shorts and she was screaming wen we told her to walk out...though she had her skirt on, im not sure wads wif de protest...got bitten 6 times by de mosquitoes there coz of her n danica, well she got scratched a letter Y on her wrist...it was horrible...
next period was chemistry and usually after pe lessons de class will be too tired out to talk...thats de best period of the day though...my eyes were still swollen from yesterday's flood [cry]...its just tt my cher called my mom and asked y my results dropped...my mom called and asked weird stuff...i really couldnt take it so i broke down...she was shocked as well so she seemed to speak more gently...i told her i was very stress and i kept it to myself for so long i tink i could just die...i didnt noe y i cried, but i did and i was feeling really hopeless...she even asked me if i want to see a phychaitrist...i totally died...as in im not crazy so wads wif tt...haiz
well for recess, i didnt have much apetite mainly coz of my DDC and my fall...it still hurts and stuff so yeah...i decided to eat potatoes instead of my usual rice...with my mind filled wif thoughts, i really didnt noe wad to tink...its all jumbled up and stuff...so i decided to enjoy my potato and put everything aside...
next lesson was geography n my DDC came back...it was super painful and i was like slouching on my table half dead...de cher told us to do our workbook...it was quite sianz...n it was de time when my eye lids started twitching...i knew tt something bad was bout to happen but i donno wad n when...the lesson droned on and soon de bell rang...
the next lesson was e-maths and we had a test...i didnt study much for it becoz i dont really noe hw...just memorised a few formula and stuff...the test wasnt as hard as i imagined but after tt i realised i had a few careless mistakes here and there...
a maths was next and we went through de horrible test paper tt i failed...as in i can get a1 for emath n i got f9 for a maths...i donno wads wif de large obvious difference but it is just like tt...mr yong allowed us to study for chinese and also told us tt next week failures hav to stay back...n of course, tt includes me...i really need serious help for a maths...my tuition cher didnt seem to help becoz its like somehw everytime i leave her house, my mind becomes blank n i forget everything...i cant believe im tt dumb but im...
chinese was next and we had another test...our cher released the previous class late and we had to do de test 5 mins later...she decided to giv us another 5 mins though...it was quite ok until i reach de stupid compre...it was like wth can...i didnt really read de passage...just picked out de answers here and there...my hand got numb from writing and i was like half dead wen de cher announced 3 mins left...wth...chiong like siao and managed to finish wif a few crap answers here and there...
literature was last and we had another test...we also had to chiong a bit and stuff so by de end of de period my hand was so numb i couldnt feel it...de bell soon rang and we hand up our papers, relieved and relaxed after all de tests...
i made my way to my dad shop...was in quite a happy mood until i got there...he told me to go in de shop coz he wanted to talk to me...tinking of it i felt like crying as well...he started asking de same stupid questions my mom asked bout my dumb results...i said i did all i could and he said since u r still failing no tv no comp n not even mp3...at this point of time, even i told myself not to, i broke down...he asked me not to but hey i hav feelings u noe...as in he said only holidays can watch since i stress...THATS TOTALLY RUBBISH! i was so helpless i couldnt speak properly...tv comp n mp3 are the things tt kept me from suicide from all de stress...nw he wants me to stop them? wad rubbish is this? ytd my mom made me cry until she didnt even dare mention it this morning...n todae my dad's turn...who's next my brother? my rabbit? wads all their prob man...i told him i need time to cope...i told him tt 5 freaking times and obviously he wasnt listening...wads more wen i reached sec 3 i totally stopped gaming n used de comp for downloading and asking of stuff on msn...he refuses to believe...
my eyes got so red i tink its de colour of blood...he lectured me for like nearing an hour...as in y cant he wait till both of us get home? its public hello?...i was super sad he didnt believe my words...he kept on saying he's not scolding nor lecturing or questioning, n said he just wanted to know hw to solvemy problem...i felt like screaming in his ears I WILL FREAKING SOLVE IT MYSELF JUST GIMME FREAKING TIME AND STOP ASKING! U DONNO HW STRESS I M AT LEAST LEAVE ME ALONE AND LEMME TINK PROPERLY RITEZ?! but i couldnt as tears streamed down my face...who says he's not questioning...its super obvious he is...he asked de same stuff over n over n over n OVER AGAIN! isnt tt questioning?! he asked me y i cried and said dont u find it funny...i was like so u laugh when ur daughter turns suicidal or something wads so funny at this point of time?! i was really mad n sad at de same time n i couldnt stop crying...i couldnt even breathe....
i was so angry tt i decided to leave...he refuses to let me go but i insist...one more second in there could send me to de mental hospital...n talking bout tt he even said tt his friend's son played comp games n landed up in mental hospital...n for de last time i defended myself I NEVER PLAY GAMES ALREADY! and he said he wasnt accusing me...if he's not den wads he doin...i left de place holding back my tears...i was really very hurt by de way he asked and even as i say nw, tears are just rolling down my cheeks...
i went to bedok interchange and got rachael's present...went to de library after tt n borrowed a few books...i was still holding back my tears all these while...so wen i took de bus n reached home, i locked myself in my room and totally broke down...i cried n cried for hours and finally i got so tired i fell asleep...its just horrible...de sky cried wif me though there isnt much clouds in de sky..is tt my granny? feeling sad for me? im not sure but i just hope she could be around wen this kinda things happen...she just noes de way to comfort me...i even had a suicidal thought to join my granny in heaven...haiz...
wen i woke up its 6 plus already...i went to bathe and took a long time in de toilet...i was just standing there, letting de water run down my skin and calm my nerves...im seriously very stressed out n worst thing is my parents are tangled in this too...mainly becoz no teachers ever called my parents b4...as in no teachers bothered bout calling my parents until this one came...she is super fussy and loves to stress her students...i suffered in silence and tried to cope wif her super huge pile of homework...in de end after tt call, she just managed to kill me n make me flood de house...it was really horrible...
so here im typing de day's stuff...i hope everyone has a better week than me...enjoy de weekends...more than me at least...
The Sky Is Still Grey From The Afternoon Rain
I Sat There Crying From The Torturous Pain
I Thought Of My Granny, Who Is Somewhere In Heaven
Coz At This Point Of Time, She Will Wrap Me With Concern
Why Do I Feel So Miserable I Asked Aloud
As I Stared At The Sky, At The Sad Looking Clouds
I Just Wish To Escape From This Horrible Place
Somewhere Else Where I Can Live At My Own Pace
That's Impossible Although i Wished
I Just Want The Freedom Of A Tiny Fish
So Happy So Carefree With Nothing To Worry
At This Point Of Time, I Felt So Sorry
Sorry For Myself, To Be In Such Horrible State
Sorry For Granny, It's Just Too Late
For Now She's Gone To A Place So Great
I Will Now Close My Eyes And Leave It To Fate
Written by: yijing =[
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every thursday, something horrible is sure to happen to me...its just crazy...why thursday? firstly its de longest day of the week, secondly it has two maths periods one after another, thirdly, it has pe and lastly i just hate it...
first period is pe todae and we did some of the stations for napfa mainly standing broad jump and sit and reach...i was practicing my standing broad jump and managed to get an a or something...so b4 the real thing i wanted to try jumping again...guess wad? BANG! i slide and landed on my side...my hip bone was super painful and when i stood up, my palms were numb...i totally couldnt feel anything...i tried poking jabbing whacking...well it just doesnt work...jia-en was shocked i fell so horribly and xiu jian even dug her nails into my palm...its just horrible so i decided to take my napfa next week instead...
b4 that, i was able to witness de spectacular...ivy wearing green shorts! she always wore fbt and de school had a sudden change in rules...no fbt for sports players too...in the end our whole class surrendered cept ivy...she got a demerit though...i didnt noe wad made her buy de shorts as in she was so persistent to not buying it...i managed to push her to de toilet but after wearing it she didnt wanna go out coz she think de shorts is gay...pushed her 5 metres outta de toilet and there she stood, hugging the wall...so i called danica n yanyou for help...in de end ivy cried for...well i oso donno y...she said she hate de shorts and she was screaming wen we told her to walk out...though she had her skirt on, im not sure wads wif de protest...got bitten 6 times by de mosquitoes there coz of her n danica, well she got scratched a letter Y on her wrist...it was horrible...
next period was chemistry and usually after pe lessons de class will be too tired out to talk...thats de best period of the day though...my eyes were still swollen from yesterday's flood [cry]...its just tt my cher called my mom and asked y my results dropped...my mom called and asked weird stuff...i really couldnt take it so i broke down...she was shocked as well so she seemed to speak more gently...i told her i was very stress and i kept it to myself for so long i tink i could just die...i didnt noe y i cried, but i did and i was feeling really hopeless...she even asked me if i want to see a phychaitrist...i totally died...as in im not crazy so wads wif tt...haiz
well for recess, i didnt have much apetite mainly coz of my DDC and my fall...it still hurts and stuff so yeah...i decided to eat potatoes instead of my usual rice...with my mind filled wif thoughts, i really didnt noe wad to tink...its all jumbled up and stuff...so i decided to enjoy my potato and put everything aside...
next lesson was geography n my DDC came back...it was super painful and i was like slouching on my table half dead...de cher told us to do our workbook...it was quite sianz...n it was de time when my eye lids started twitching...i knew tt something bad was bout to happen but i donno wad n when...the lesson droned on and soon de bell rang...
the next lesson was e-maths and we had a test...i didnt study much for it becoz i dont really noe hw...just memorised a few formula and stuff...the test wasnt as hard as i imagined but after tt i realised i had a few careless mistakes here and there...
a maths was next and we went through de horrible test paper tt i failed...as in i can get a1 for emath n i got f9 for a maths...i donno wads wif de large obvious difference but it is just like tt...mr yong allowed us to study for chinese and also told us tt next week failures hav to stay back...n of course, tt includes me...i really need serious help for a maths...my tuition cher didnt seem to help becoz its like somehw everytime i leave her house, my mind becomes blank n i forget everything...i cant believe im tt dumb but im...
chinese was next and we had another test...our cher released the previous class late and we had to do de test 5 mins later...she decided to giv us another 5 mins though...it was quite ok until i reach de stupid compre...it was like wth can...i didnt really read de passage...just picked out de answers here and there...my hand got numb from writing and i was like half dead wen de cher announced 3 mins left...wth...chiong like siao and managed to finish wif a few crap answers here and there...
literature was last and we had another test...we also had to chiong a bit and stuff so by de end of de period my hand was so numb i couldnt feel it...de bell soon rang and we hand up our papers, relieved and relaxed after all de tests...
i made my way to my dad shop...was in quite a happy mood until i got there...he told me to go in de shop coz he wanted to talk to me...tinking of it i felt like crying as well...he started asking de same stupid questions my mom asked bout my dumb results...i said i did all i could and he said since u r still failing no tv no comp n not even mp3...at this point of time, even i told myself not to, i broke down...he asked me not to but hey i hav feelings u noe...as in he said only holidays can watch since i stress...THATS TOTALLY RUBBISH! i was so helpless i couldnt speak properly...tv comp n mp3 are the things tt kept me from suicide from all de stress...nw he wants me to stop them? wad rubbish is this? ytd my mom made me cry until she didnt even dare mention it this morning...n todae my dad's turn...who's next my brother? my rabbit? wads all their prob man...i told him i need time to cope...i told him tt 5 freaking times and obviously he wasnt listening...wads more wen i reached sec 3 i totally stopped gaming n used de comp for downloading and asking of stuff on msn...he refuses to believe...
my eyes got so red i tink its de colour of blood...he lectured me for like nearing an hour...as in y cant he wait till both of us get home? its public hello?...i was super sad he didnt believe my words...he kept on saying he's not scolding nor lecturing or questioning, n said he just wanted to know hw to solvemy problem...i felt like screaming in his ears I WILL FREAKING SOLVE IT MYSELF JUST GIMME FREAKING TIME AND STOP ASKING! U DONNO HW STRESS I M AT LEAST LEAVE ME ALONE AND LEMME TINK PROPERLY RITEZ?! but i couldnt as tears streamed down my face...who says he's not questioning...its super obvious he is...he asked de same stuff over n over n over n OVER AGAIN! isnt tt questioning?! he asked me y i cried and said dont u find it funny...i was like so u laugh when ur daughter turns suicidal or something wads so funny at this point of time?! i was really mad n sad at de same time n i couldnt stop crying...i couldnt even breathe....
i was so angry tt i decided to leave...he refuses to let me go but i insist...one more second in there could send me to de mental hospital...n talking bout tt he even said tt his friend's son played comp games n landed up in mental hospital...n for de last time i defended myself I NEVER PLAY GAMES ALREADY! and he said he wasnt accusing me...if he's not den wads he doin...i left de place holding back my tears...i was really very hurt by de way he asked and even as i say nw, tears are just rolling down my cheeks...
i went to bedok interchange and got rachael's present...went to de library after tt n borrowed a few books...i was still holding back my tears all these while...so wen i took de bus n reached home, i locked myself in my room and totally broke down...i cried n cried for hours and finally i got so tired i fell asleep...its just horrible...de sky cried wif me though there isnt much clouds in de sky..is tt my granny? feeling sad for me? im not sure but i just hope she could be around wen this kinda things happen...she just noes de way to comfort me...i even had a suicidal thought to join my granny in heaven...haiz...
wen i woke up its 6 plus already...i went to bathe and took a long time in de toilet...i was just standing there, letting de water run down my skin and calm my nerves...im seriously very stressed out n worst thing is my parents are tangled in this too...mainly becoz no teachers ever called my parents b4...as in no teachers bothered bout calling my parents until this one came...she is super fussy and loves to stress her students...i suffered in silence and tried to cope wif her super huge pile of homework...in de end after tt call, she just managed to kill me n make me flood de house...it was really horrible...
so here im typing de day's stuff...i hope everyone has a better week than me...enjoy de weekends...more than me at least...
The Sky Is Still Grey From The Afternoon Rain
I Sat There Crying From The Torturous Pain
I Thought Of My Granny, Who Is Somewhere In Heaven
Coz At This Point Of Time, She Will Wrap Me With Concern
Why Do I Feel So Miserable I Asked Aloud
As I Stared At The Sky, At The Sad Looking Clouds
I Just Wish To Escape From This Horrible Place
Somewhere Else Where I Can Live At My Own Pace
That's Impossible Although i Wished
I Just Want The Freedom Of A Tiny Fish
So Happy So Carefree With Nothing To Worry
At This Point Of Time, I Felt So Sorry
Sorry For Myself, To Be In Such Horrible State
Sorry For Granny, It's Just Too Late
For Now She's Gone To A Place So Great
I Will Now Close My Eyes And Leave It To Fate
Written by: yijing =[