Today was the day all the fun ended...the joy we had were washed away with the tears streaming down our faces...but what can we do, except smile and send him off? deep down everyone had their hearts ripped cruelly apart, and we still could only smile? we werent happy to have him leaving and migrate somewhere else leaving us all alone here but still, we smiled...and now, we are so helpless that we can only think of him from all the memories that he gave us...all the joy and fun he supplied...the comfort and care he showed...is he really going to be history, the past tense? i really do hope he could come back soon...
the thought of having to see his smile, hear his laughter and watch the mischeif he gets into were torturous...we cant do anything but recall...the truth is that if he dont come back soon, the image of him will soon fade and people will soon forget...i dont want that to happen...it is just horrible to think that sooner or later people are going to get used to the life without him...i dont think i will because he was the light in our lives...now he left us all in darkness again...no matter how we get used, nothing will be the same again...
today i woke up at around 4 plus...was feeling horrible because of my cramps and also the thought of someone so close, so nice, leaving us...so what if its new year...it does seem like a new year without him...i rather go through 2008 again...but what can we do? as ivy said, reality is cruel...nothing is fair in this world...i cant imagine that in hours, lee sheng is really going to be gone...he will only be miles away but we may not see him till i m not sure when...he seemed so near yet so far...
during the car ride to the airport, i didnt talk...i just plugged in my mp4 and listened to all the emo songs that the device shuffled for me...it just seemed to know my mood...i breathed deeply, hoping that i wont wail in front of him later...but sometimes things are hard to control...after we reached, my mom ate breakfast n i ate with her...i didnt really have any appetite and i feel like crying but still i managed to keep them in and munched hard on the bread to forget bout the pain my heart is going through...
we met him at the check in counters...stopped him just in time because his parents wanted to go in earlier...so shenghui zhekai shiet pin ivy and i, well we sat there talking...the atmosphere was tense, threatening to let any one of us release the flood from within our eyes...although sheng hui tried to liven the atmosphere, it doesnt seem to be of any use...
lee sheng kept quiet all the while...it was that strange moment of silence that we went through at Tampines yesterday...this time the feeling was worse...u just feel like blabbering all ur feelings u thoughts and anything under the sun to him before he leaves, because u dont know when will be the next time u r able to do that...the silence was broken shortly after with talking but it was just horrible...
we chat about all the great times we had together and remembered loads of funny incidents...happy times ended very quickly and his parents asked for him to go...we took pictures though, so he will be remembered clearly...he gave the guys hugs but yeah we were left out...zhekai flooded his face right after that hug...i remember the last time leesheng hugged me in school for farewell, the feeling was torturous too and i almost cried, so i understand how he felt...so yeah lee sheng said quick goodbye trying not to look into our sad eyes, i guess for fear of himself crying as well...we said our last goodbye, the last words that we may ever get to say to him again till the next time he comes back...
well my mom wanted to go to pottery...so shortly after, i parted with my fellow friends...ivy had red eyes, the obvious effort that she was trying to hold back her tears...i had that strange queasy feeling in my stomach too...its just so quick and so sad...its like just yesterday we knew him, we made friends with him, we became close to him and now he is off on the plane...time is really precious isnt it?
on the way to the pottery, the songs that my mp4 played were meant to torture me too..the first one was torn...although its a love song, some of the lyrics were totally describing us...there is one that said" im wide awake n i can see the perfect sky is torn" and one more song was a chinese one bout the rainbow that only one side of us can see and hope the other could see too...the last one was true friend, singing bout how good a true friend is that shields u from trouble n stuff...i couldnt take it anymore so i changed to happier songs...
at the pottery, my mom made de clay and stuff...so i brought my mp4, handphone and a loaf of bread to isolate myself to the pond they had there...it has loads of fishes too...so i spent the day feeding them, and thinking of the memories we had together...
it suddenly rained and as i looked up, the sky was grey, dark and sad, like how i was feeling...it seemed to be weeping over his departure as well...that made me even sadder and as i fed the fishes, i seemed to try and throw my troubles away with the bread that i was throwing...it was as if i was communicating with the fishes...the birds around sang too, like in tone of comfort...if all these were what i was thinking, then i would like to thank the fishes and birds...
i thought that after the rain, the sun will come out again...but it remained grey...and until now, even at my house, the colour seemed to deepen and darken, adjusting to my mood...haiz i guess he is still in the plane now...either trying not to think or perhaps crying? i m not really sure because his thoughts were always secretive and stuff...i was still thinking while walking downhill and my slipper flipped, causing a crack in my ankle...almost fell flat on my face and rolled downhill but luckily i didnt...my ankle hurts quite a fair bit so i just tried to walk normally...
after that, the journey in the car back home was tiring...so i fell asleep quite soon, with the soothing music as well...i felt like a part of me was ripped off since the morning...but i cant do anything to make myself feel better...yesterday seemed to be the first time i cried so much...usually i will do so during funerals or when i get really hurt but the tears just streamed down my face...one after another...its just hard to control...my eyes were swollen too and i felt horrible...
so yeah that's bout all for my sad day...i do hope he can visit soon and hope that he takes care...thanz 4 the teddy as well leesheng, it will be well kept and treasured...because that is the only damn thing he gave...
so yeah thanz 4 reading n hava nice week! great, school reopens tomorrow...-.-!!! from a girl with damn mixed emotions : yijing =[
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Today was the day all the fun ended...the joy we had were washed away with the tears streaming down our faces...but what can we do, except smile and send him off? deep down everyone had their hearts ripped cruelly apart, and we still could only smile? we werent happy to have him leaving and migrate somewhere else leaving us all alone here but still, we smiled...and now, we are so helpless that we can only think of him from all the memories that he gave us...all the joy and fun he supplied...the comfort and care he showed...is he really going to be history, the past tense? i really do hope he could come back soon...
the thought of having to see his smile, hear his laughter and watch the mischeif he gets into were torturous...we cant do anything but recall...the truth is that if he dont come back soon, the image of him will soon fade and people will soon forget...i dont want that to happen...it is just horrible to think that sooner or later people are going to get used to the life without him...i dont think i will because he was the light in our lives...now he left us all in darkness again...no matter how we get used, nothing will be the same again...
today i woke up at around 4 plus...was feeling horrible because of my cramps and also the thought of someone so close, so nice, leaving us...so what if its new year...it does seem like a new year without him...i rather go through 2008 again...but what can we do? as ivy said, reality is cruel...nothing is fair in this world...i cant imagine that in hours, lee sheng is really going to be gone...he will only be miles away but we may not see him till i m not sure when...he seemed so near yet so far...
during the car ride to the airport, i didnt talk...i just plugged in my mp4 and listened to all the emo songs that the device shuffled for me...it just seemed to know my mood...i breathed deeply, hoping that i wont wail in front of him later...but sometimes things are hard to control...after we reached, my mom ate breakfast n i ate with her...i didnt really have any appetite and i feel like crying but still i managed to keep them in and munched hard on the bread to forget bout the pain my heart is going through...
we met him at the check in counters...stopped him just in time because his parents wanted to go in earlier...so shenghui zhekai shiet pin ivy and i, well we sat there talking...the atmosphere was tense, threatening to let any one of us release the flood from within our eyes...although sheng hui tried to liven the atmosphere, it doesnt seem to be of any use...
lee sheng kept quiet all the while...it was that strange moment of silence that we went through at Tampines yesterday...this time the feeling was worse...u just feel like blabbering all ur feelings u thoughts and anything under the sun to him before he leaves, because u dont know when will be the next time u r able to do that...the silence was broken shortly after with talking but it was just horrible...
we chat about all the great times we had together and remembered loads of funny incidents...happy times ended very quickly and his parents asked for him to go...we took pictures though, so he will be remembered clearly...he gave the guys hugs but yeah we were left out...zhekai flooded his face right after that hug...i remember the last time leesheng hugged me in school for farewell, the feeling was torturous too and i almost cried, so i understand how he felt...so yeah lee sheng said quick goodbye trying not to look into our sad eyes, i guess for fear of himself crying as well...we said our last goodbye, the last words that we may ever get to say to him again till the next time he comes back...
well my mom wanted to go to pottery...so shortly after, i parted with my fellow friends...ivy had red eyes, the obvious effort that she was trying to hold back her tears...i had that strange queasy feeling in my stomach too...its just so quick and so sad...its like just yesterday we knew him, we made friends with him, we became close to him and now he is off on the plane...time is really precious isnt it?
on the way to the pottery, the songs that my mp4 played were meant to torture me too..the first one was torn...although its a love song, some of the lyrics were totally describing us...there is one that said" im wide awake n i can see the perfect sky is torn" and one more song was a chinese one bout the rainbow that only one side of us can see and hope the other could see too...the last one was true friend, singing bout how good a true friend is that shields u from trouble n stuff...i couldnt take it anymore so i changed to happier songs...
at the pottery, my mom made de clay and stuff...so i brought my mp4, handphone and a loaf of bread to isolate myself to the pond they had there...it has loads of fishes too...so i spent the day feeding them, and thinking of the memories we had together...
it suddenly rained and as i looked up, the sky was grey, dark and sad, like how i was feeling...it seemed to be weeping over his departure as well...that made me even sadder and as i fed the fishes, i seemed to try and throw my troubles away with the bread that i was throwing...it was as if i was communicating with the fishes...the birds around sang too, like in tone of comfort...if all these were what i was thinking, then i would like to thank the fishes and birds...
i thought that after the rain, the sun will come out again...but it remained grey...and until now, even at my house, the colour seemed to deepen and darken, adjusting to my mood...haiz i guess he is still in the plane now...either trying not to think or perhaps crying? i m not really sure because his thoughts were always secretive and stuff...i was still thinking while walking downhill and my slipper flipped, causing a crack in my ankle...almost fell flat on my face and rolled downhill but luckily i didnt...my ankle hurts quite a fair bit so i just tried to walk normally...
after that, the journey in the car back home was tiring...so i fell asleep quite soon, with the soothing music as well...i felt like a part of me was ripped off since the morning...but i cant do anything to make myself feel better...yesterday seemed to be the first time i cried so much...usually i will do so during funerals or when i get really hurt but the tears just streamed down my face...one after another...its just hard to control...my eyes were swollen too and i felt horrible...
so yeah that's bout all for my sad day...i do hope he can visit soon and hope that he takes care...thanz 4 the teddy as well leesheng, it will be well kept and treasured...because that is the only damn thing he gave...
so yeah thanz 4 reading n hava nice week! great, school reopens tomorrow...-.-!!! from a girl with damn mixed emotions : yijing =[