Wednesday, January 28, 2009

haiz sianz...i guess its back to the emo me...

well yesterday i went to jiaxuan's house for her CNY celebration so yeah...i reached at bout 9 plus to deliver the nasi lemak and i didnt expect them to slam and lock their room door in my face! now i noe hw irritating i m or wadeva...they planned it the previous night that if i came the next day, i m not allowed to disturb their precious sleep...i didnt even get a chance to speak...i cant help but feel rejected...

well the plan was for me to stay and the rest of the family to pray at the temple...but since i wasnt welcomed at all, i decided to leave with them and pray to actually get some forgiveness from the gods for being irritating...feeling a bit sad that my couz did that to me, i left...

in the car, i was feeling somewhat sad, so i just stare blankly outside as the trees and cars sped by in a blur...my mom was also like a bit disappointed with them becoz no matter wad they are still the host...i didnt mind them sleeping but at least they didnt hav to go to the extent of closing n locking the door...

the atmosphere was tense without my noisy chatters...i felt a bit uncomfortable too but i cant really tink of anything much to say so i kept my silence...we went to two different temples to pray and i was feeling a bit down inside...so yeah by noon we went back to their house and i was really hungry so i ate...

i was trying not to release the devil from within so i just smiled and asked y they did that...haiz for the whole day i was feeling very hungry like my stomack was some kinda bottomless pit or something so i was trying my best not to devour everything there...i didnt noe wads wif my stomach but i really cant help it...

so i decided if i stayed away from food i would feel less greedy and i wont have to face the temptations...i went to the room and sat there for like 5 mins b4 jiaxuan offered me a lollipop...i wanted to kill it n gobble it down but i guess its not really nice to, so i kept it in my bag...a while later i really cant help it so i ate another serving of nasi lemak...this time round my stomack seemed happy and i didnt feel that hungry anymore...

stayed there the whole day and at night while my granny was playing polka, she told me to cut and said that if she loses money, she wont cook for me or something...turns out that everytime i cut, she wins so good lor...we reached home at round 11 and i was so tired that i fell asleep on the spot...

well todae we went to school wearing home clothes and spent the day making lanterns and watching performances...didnt do much n i was so tired i slept when i reached home until bout 5 plus...ate dinner watched tv n decided to blog...

emoing all day long so i guess it means no smiles for a few months...from a damn emo girl: yijing =[

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
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