Wednesday, December 31, 2008

It will never be the same again without you...do visit sometimes...

Lee Sheng,
Just a word from your sister...do take care of yourself when you are overseas...dont get into as much trouble as you do here too...i just hope that wherever u go and whatever u do, we (zhekai, ivy n me...n weihuat if u want) will always support u...u will be remembered clearly n be carved deeply in our hearts...study well too and you must remember to remember us...u will always be the nice, mischievious, comforting little brother ivy n i will ever have...n in times of difficulty, i hope u will tink of us...because deep down, we will always support u all the way...

Love: Yijing =]

well todae i went out with lee sheng, zhekai and ivy...it was sort of the farewell meeting to send off lee sheng and yeah we tried to have fun...the three of us folded a jar full of hearts for him...though out fingertips hurt and was numb too...we were determined to finish it and we did...we wrote a letter to him too...our regards, wishes and everything...in fact i m tearing madly now (in other words, crying)...

he came soon after we finished...smiling the way he used to smile in school...i was staring, trying to absorb it and make sure it stays carved in my memories because the only photo we had of him was the class photo and he wasnt really smiling...he decided to eat chicken rice, because he said he wont be able to eat it when he goes overseas tmr...so he ate it with zhekai, the common yet special food that he may not get to eat for the next year...we tried chatting with him, trying to put aside all the crying and wailing...trying to treasure the last hours of joy we were gonna have together...

after that we went to play at the arcade...and went to the outdoor playground too...there was a moment of silence...one that seemed comforting yet sad...one that would make you cry but you will think twice so as not to break the silence...like a farewell gesture without words...its just so sad...after a while it seemed uncomfortable, as you think of the time you r wasting not talking to him...the seconds that ticked by, the minute hand that seemed to move faster and faster...

soon yeah we starting talking again like normal...i went to buy a drink and shared it with ivy...we continued talking and soon he had to go and bond with some other people...playing mahjong or something...although we didnt want him to go, he still had to...because he still had other friends that maybe weeping deep down...so yeah he went away and i was left with ivy...zhekai went with him too...n i asked him to buy me a teddy...so i can remember him...though he dont believe in material stuff...

we spent the rest of the time playing arcade and at round 5 plus we decided to make our way home...i watched television...and now here i m typing, sobbing, sniffing, tearing and trying to breathe all at the same time...its hard to control the sobbing by now though i tried and i just feel so sad...i cant believe the feeling i m gonna get when the hugging comes tmr and the sight of him leaving through the gate...it will be so torturous...

i just hope he will live a better live and come back to visit us during the holidays...and lastly i just want him to know that he will stay deeply carved in our hearts no matter where he go...support is with him in whatever he do and happiness will be when we tink of him (not the leaving part though) so yeah...

thanz 4 reading n hava Happy New Year! or rather a happier one than mine...from a damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn sad girl: yijing ='[ (dont leave)

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|12:31 PM|


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