Sunday, March 23, 2008

i feel terrible...nw there is another reason 2 hate myself n confirmed that i m cursed...=[

well, todae i woke up at at around 9am, n i felt totally ill...i didnt noe y but i felt very stressed...these few days, there r many things taunting me...it just came crashing down all at once...todae, Jiaxuan family brought me out 2 FarMart, Goat Farm, Fish Farm and Sungei Buloh... Farmart was a shopping market n we saw a puppy shop...all the puppies r sooooooooo cute! den we shopped 4 a while, n went 2 the Goat farm...the goats there were very cute too! den we bought some goat milk n went on 2 the various fish farms located near that area...after that, we went 2 a nature reserve walk at Sungei Buloh...the breath of nature, the sights of greenery, the sound of gentle breeze...all these things managed 2 calm me down after all that had happened the previous day...den we went 2 Simei Eastpoint n had Sakae Sushi 4 dinner...Jia xuan n i talked a lot 4 the whole day, n i found out some unpleasant things that i dont really like hearing...well one of the examples is that many ppl she noes actually hates me 4 the rong reasons...they tink that i m a two-timer(or even three) kinda person but they dont noe wad is behind the scenes...it may look as if i m the bad guy, but the fact is that no one noes i m the victim...i felt toally lost listening 2 my cousin's words...its not her fault, but the news she brought 2 me totally made me wanna break down...many unexpected things happened...i really dont wanna list them, but i feel terrible...i noe that unpleasant things do happen in this world, but isnt there an end 2 this?? its like going overboard, TOO OVERBOARD! i cant take all these any longer n i could just collapse anytime...the most terrible thing had already happened a few days back n it tore down a huge part of me...but worse has yet 2 come n at last it did, todae...i really didnt expect him 2 lie 2 me...i guess ppl do hav 2 lie 4 some reasons but...i felt very hurt...i was close 2 the stage of stead, but...everything faded away...the happy times we had, the comfort he gav me wen i was sad...it was all destroyed from that lie of his...i noe i m not up 2 his standard...but he shouldnt hav done that n i noe he likes another girl...so wads the point of stead if he dont really like me that much n had another sweetheart...i just had 2 reject...n nw things turned out the way they shouldnt be...ppl think that i m a 2-timer n stuff...i really feel like exploding into a tsunami of tears n flood my house with it, drowning myself in it...haiz all i can say is that...all these confirms me as a curse n i guess i shall remain as one 4eva...yijing =[

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
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