Friday, February 15, 2008

My teddy bear, lost forever...haii =[

well went to school as usual, n well nothing much happened as the subject periods slowly dragged its way till 12.35am where i m free! haha den went to my dad's shop, i took a bottle of FnN Groovy grape and tried to open it until i reached the bus-stop, to no avail...my hands were red so i just tucked the bottle at the side of my bag n waited patiently for the never-coming bus...when it did came at last, i was already falling asleep wif the mp4 plugged into my ears...boarding the crowded bus, i reached home at around 1.30pm n after i went to my room, i took everything out of my pocket: wallet, warheads sweet, thumbdrive, handphone...hey wait a minute! something is missing! OMG!!! My teddy bear that always hanged at my phone was gone!! Anxious, i rushed out of the house in search of it...to no avail again...i walked to every place i went to after i got off the bus...that means the bear must hav dropped while i was in the bus!! Sad like mad, n drooping my head, i went home, very very sad...the bear had been wif me 4 like 7 years, n now i just lost it like that...=[ i m so sad...den i blog-surfed and found out that one of my friends had been very emo...becoz of me?? i didnt noe that he liked me...i tot he was kidding all the way...in the end he wrote his sorrows there, n my heart pierced hard when i read his post...i didnt noe i could mean so much to someone...there was nothing bout me that could actually attract myself...n i didnt noe i could hurt someone's heart so much...thinking of that could kill me n add on to my stress but at this age if i actually had a bf n dated, my mom will surely kill me if she finds out...but still i hope that he will not be sad...coz i didnt say no to him...i m too young to date...i tink that i shouldnt hav made friends wif him so that all these troubles and misery would not hav occured...if time could just turn back, i will make sure i dont interfere wif his life n leave him alone, happy...all these misery were caused by me n i felt very sorry, sorry for him , n sorry 4 myself...i seriously hope i hav not interrupted his life and this could actually save all the troubles that had happened...y must i always bring misery to others?? cant i just mind my own buisness n dont destroy other people's lives?? that y i hate myself so much n usually felt emo in my heart...i always tried to cheer people up but i guess i m a bit of pain in the neck...haii i guess i m a jinx n not meant 2 be in this world...haii...hav a nice week...thanz 4 reading...yijing =[

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
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